When I had my first meniere’s attack I couldn’t believe that I could be so out of control of my body. I also couldn’t believe that it was happening to me. I was in a car accident, not a bad accident someone hit me from behind. I believe that was the cause of my MM. I know that the doctors that I have seen don’t necessarily agree with that, who knows it could be something else. I thought that it would just go away and everything would be okay.
But the worse was to come.
As I explained in many of my posts my attacks got worse and more numerous. As all this was going on my emotional state was taking a dive. I knew there was no cure and the thought that the rest of my life was going to be this way scared me. How can I live like this?
And it wasn’t any picnic for my family either. My wife was scared that I was going to hurt myself by falling or by being in a car wreck. My son who was 4 at the time didn’t know what to think seeing his father in the emergency room or seeing his father throwing up violently at home.
I had to get in the right mind set about MM and how it was controling my life. Instead of accepting that thing were always going to be this way, I decided that I would go from doctor to doctor until I got some relief. And after 5 years I think I have. But if I get another round of bad attacks I will be back at the doctor’s office trying something, anything to control this awful illness.
I know that it is difficult, very difficult, but you must keep trying to control this thing. Don’t let it control you.